Wednesday, September 5, 2012

I want the chance...


I want the chance...
I want the chance to tell to you...
I want the chance to talk to you...
I want the chance to share a conversation with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to be there for you...
I want the chance to surprise you...
I want the chance to dream with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to open my life to you...
I want the chance to share my life with you...
I want the chance to create a life with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to smile with you...
I want the chance to laugh with you...
I want the chance to help you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to grow with you...
I want the chance to live with you...
I want the chance to die with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to protect you...
I want the chance to support you...
I want the chance to be proud of you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to be myself with you...
I want the chance to do the unthinkable with you...
I want the chance to be fearless with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to be brave with you...
I want the chance to be confident with you...
I want the chance to be honest with you...

I want the chance...
I want the chance to like you...
I want the chance to love you...
I want the chance to trust with you...

I want the chance to complete you...
I want the chance to be best friends with you...
I want the chance to be with you...



I want the chance...

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Morning rush


How do you know when you've found that one person you can see yourself spending the rest of your life with?
If you have like me, do you wonder if they will still want you tomorrow?

What do you do when you can't stop thinking about that one person you see yourself sharing the remainder of your life with? What do you do when you've fallen head over heels for that person, yet unsure of their feelings towards you? The thoughts begin to consume you. You begin to not only day dream, but uncontrollably dream at night about what the future holds. Some say "oh, just let it happen" or "if it is meant to be, then it will be." We've all said that. But once in the hot seat you understand that those two statements are irrelevant and never apply.
Your thoughts about that person begin to brew of the good, positive, and fulfilling feelings that can happen in your life. But with the positive and uplifting, there can bring fear; fear of losing something so precious and potentially healing that you become afraid of losing the opportunity to love.

Nothing would be able to heal except for their touch, their hug, their kiss, their affection, their presences.

The mind is certainly underestimated. The mind is such a powerful tool; almost a weapon. Your mind controls all of your emotions via thought. What you think is what you feel and what you feel is what you think. Each person has their own emotional rollercoaster. Love is a thrill. Thrills are high, but have unexpected drops, turns and loops. In the end you're left mind boggled and dizzy. But after awhile you're suppose to feel alright again, right? For some, we stay dizzy, off balance, and confused as to what to feel.

Even when you think you're hiding your feelings, fears, and doubts you've already shown more than you think. Although the idea of being in love can heal, the feeling can also bring tears of disappointment and resentment. The idea of being alone for the remainder of my life scares me every second of my life. DAILY!
Each and every person carries imperfections, insecurities, and baggage. We all know that. We as humans have a tendency to fear far too much. Faith is not a word that should go ignored. Faith is real. Being discouraged is easy, but not promising. Having faith is not at all naive. Having faith shows you're willing to take a chance and invest into your self-fulfillment and total happiness.
We all fear loneliness. Don't be alarmed; there will be more times of loneliness and there will also be times when we feel that love again. Seek that FULL feeling you yearn for. Go for that special person who is brave enough to take a chance to perfect your imperfections, secure your insecurities, and unpack your baggage and help you settle into your skin and become one with them.

Everyone wants to love and be loved. That's an objective in life. Understand there will be times of loneliness. But the emptiness will pass and once you've gained that full love, loneliness will be absent.